How angry?

should i be angry? i think i should... but i know there is no point for me to that.. cuz deep inside me, its only my initial reaction.. i need to blame someone, so i blame myself... i get ridiculed for that...Today, i finally realised that all this while, all the things that i was so against in life, things i though i would never ever do, i've done it... what does that leave me as? a piece of hypocritical shit that only talks cuz his mouth seems to be bigger than his ass and balls combined... i shudder at the thought of myself now... i have begun a small feeling of dispise for myself... and its gonna grow bigger every other day that i feel like this... Welcome to the world of the insanely ridiculas, fickle fucked druggy....